Winsenta

Mom says: "I'm half Ukrainian. You are a quarter." But I weigh my inner feelings and understand that no, not a quarter. At the time of birth, it may have been a quarter. But after the first lullabies in Ukrainian - a little more. After Olga Pulatova and Elena Voinarovskaya gave words and meanings to my nervous teenage growing up, it's not about quantity anymore. After that night, when I fell asleep on the water, lulled by the waves of the Dnieper, it was already indistinguishable, without borders. And now a fierce wolf's gaze draws lines under the skin, sliding along the dotted lines, which were already torn by the father's betrayal. And I supposedly have to choose the interests of the people who sent some of my relatives to kill others? Driving my friends into basements, destroying the homes of poets, artists and musicians who made me who I am? Unthinkable and impossible. I know everything, I will remember everything, I will not forgive.

I'm horrified and don't understand how this could happen. I hardly understand my place in this whole situation. I do not support war. This should never have happened. I did not vote for Putin, he has been in power for as long as I can remember. In recent years, I have been busy with survival and my main concern was to keep family members and friends from committing suicide. There were five attempts in three years. The only thing I barely make a living from is art. It seems like madness to continue drawing as if nothing had happened. But if I stop, my family will quickly find themselves homeless. And perhaps this is the reason why the Russians allowed what is happening. The authorities provided us with learned helplessness from childhood and poverty, so that our thoughts were occupied only with them. I am ashamed of the actions of my country, I am scared for the Ukrainians and I do not understand what to do.

Congratulations to KateTrap (https://www.deviantart.com/katetrap) !! Those who did not win, do not be discouraged, I think soon to start another raffle, stay tuned. I would like to giveaway an adopt every two or three weeks. If I hadn’t been sick, I would have started new raffle today.